Today has been challenging working from home. My anxiety has been so severe I have revised my will. Despite some minor health difficulties, I’m determined to try to love peace and positive parenting, endeavouring to make a positive contribution to the world. On days like this, my fear has been overwhelming with self-criticism. I used to listen to a lot of positive affirmations to overcome my fear and to develop a positive self.
Despite the terrifying fear, the practising of yoga even 5 minutes every now and again the difficult stretches from Ashtanga yoga have been a source of relief. They have transformed my stress, which has been high due to struggling to clear the clutter around the house in order to sit at my desk.
Finding managing the household tasks along with the expectation of producing something positive and consistent and feeling bad about the fact that I have had to claim benefits to supplement my income has affected my self-image.
Affirm;
I’m really scared of other peoples harsh criticism of this too. This is especially difficult as I am highly educated, but living in an area which is still unknown to me. There are few people I speak with and the level of social isolation I currently feel is sometimes difficult, but sometimes the solitude is an absolute source of comfort
Affirm;
I can
I will
Singing really has helped to alleviate my chest pain and the prayers for peace in the world, I think Sanskrit makes me even more resolute to love peace wholeheartedly and to ensure that I am a PeaceMaker. I hope this has a positive ripple. My love singing, and an endeavour to smile through the stress and fear gives me courage and hope.
I keep trying different projects and waking up forgetting what I am working on. It makes it very difficult to be consistent in developing a positive work ethic. My self-criticism is well, why can’t I sustain a strong career and my frustration that sometimes my social interactions may be awkward and weird possibly due to some of the life situations I have been through
Affirm;
I am not my life situation
I am not my economic situation
For anyone else struggling to contribute something free writing has been a source of relief and in time may plant positive seeds for future economic growth.
Talking of seeds, gardening is on the horizon. Broadens to be planted in the garden and there is the hope of cultivating a crystal garden too.
Focusing on birthdays and Christmas while around the house and focusing on positive things and joyful moments of past, present and future and trying to find our weird human behaviour funny is a source of comfort.